Deep Breath

Over the weekend my mother in law whose been taking care of me since my surgery had to leave.
I really enjoyed having her around it helped me get to know her and her to know me.
I ended up feeling very close to her and finally started feeling accepted into the family of which I married. As you can imagine it's incredibly difficult for me to open up to someone's mother especially when I wasn't sure she even liked me to begin with.
I knew she was a great mother to my husband and his siblings and I always thought she was a nice person, just...wasn't sure that she wanted me in her family married to her pride and joy.
It's just nice to feel accepted by a mother for once....to feel loved in a family.

My husband and I went to an art fair just to get out of the house. Mac made several appearances and took pictures to post on facebook. She had been extremely good while his mom was in town staying away and keeping herself occupied with appropriate things to do. She enjoyed people watching at the festival and talking to my husband, just hanging out.
She brought up me getting pregnant and having a baby and wanted to know where we were moving. All things that are undecided at this point. I want to wait a while before having kids though I do want them at some point.
We've begun setting up a plan to buy a house (our first home together) and have started budgeting to get together a down payment. We're hoping to move within the next 6 months...so fingers crossed.
I hope that when we do move there's not a giant upset like there was when we moved from one state to another a couple of years ago. We'll be talking to "the girls" about it when we know more about when and specifically where we're going to move. I am trying to keep them up to date on as much as I can to help them understand what's going on and to feel they can talk to us if they need to say something. Trying to find a balance with them is sometimes the most difficult thing I do during the course of a week.
At this point I'm just trying to function and make things move as smoothly as possible.
I'm stuck in bed for 90 percent or better during the day with only the tv and my dog to entertain me.
The pain in my leg is excruciating, way worse than I had expected and it's constant. I'm lonely during the day now that my mother in law is gone and that makes me a bit depressed. My friends are busy with their lives so right now they can't come and visit me...it's tough not getting up and going to work daily. I guess I feel sometimes that if I don't do everything I'm used to doing it'll all just...fall apart.
I just need to take a deep breath and remind myself that this is only temporary and when it's over I can go back to business and life as usual.
In the mean time it's just annoying to feel swollen and fat and achy and restless...lol
Deep breath.
-Divided Mind-