Post Surgery

This is the first day since my surgery I am actually able to write. Before today I was having difficulty holding any type of conversation let alone writing because my short term memory gets ALOT shorter when I'm taking pain meds.
Lately, all the days since my surgery have begun running together, most of the time I don't even know which day is which.

My surgery went well, although it did end up turning into two surgeries at once on the same leg due to the multiple issues that needed to be addressed. Basically what they did was they replaced my : LCL, ACL, and MCL.
And they totally replaced my knee as well. This is the first surgery I've had ever so I'm glad the people at the hospital I went to were so nice and helpful. Unfortunately, it won't be the last surgery I need, at the least I still need two more done but for now this is plenty for me to deal with.

My leg is killing me and it's definitely not helping my back pain either. I just keep trying to remind myself it'll all be over soon...at least until the fall. The past couple of days though I've been running a fever off and on and getting some KILLER migraines so I'm just trying to cope as best I can.

Mac and the others aren't happy at all to be stuck in bed with me. Mac has tried keeping herself occupied by coloring because she has to keep a low profile. Mostly because my husband's mother is in town and doesn't know anything about the alters and her finding out while she's here to help take care of me, well it just doesn't seem like the right time.

For me, there's alot of things I need to get done but most of it I need my big desktop computer since my laptop is a P.O.S. but there's just no way I could manage sitting in a chair at this point. As it is, having the laptop on my lap is causing enough pain to last me all day.

The alters have come out a couple of times to try and enjoy some "out" time but were shooed back in so they wouldn't bust our cover.
We had a "family meeting" a couple of days ago to discuss issues we were having with the alters.
My husband in the past year or so had decided he didn't want to know what was going on with the alters, and so we had an agreement that nothing would be discussed about them unless it was a life or death sort of necessity. He was so stressed with their behavior that he was hoping he could just focus on me and our relationship as if the rest of them didn't exist and we could have some sense of normality. Though it was harder on me to not have anyone to share my feelings about the alters I didn't want to be the source of turmoil in my husband's life. And I could still talk to my friend about it since he knows and loves "the girls" as he calls them.
For him, there is really no risk in being interested in their lives, dreams, etc.
But now that my husband wants to know what's going on with me AND the alters we might be able to try and salvage a partnership with them and work as a team instead of 10 people going 10 different directions.
We need unity, we need peace, we need a damn break.
No matter how hard I try I will never be able to "control" the alters or the choices they make, but I'm hoping it won't be as much of a burden to try and carry all their mistakes in my heart weighing me down all the time.
That being said, I would really like to meet an alter who's a super fast healer so I could go back to my life in the real world.
-Divided Mind-