Today I'm babysitting my friend's son while she's at work.
We've been watching Cars, Bubble Guppies, and a LITTLE bit of Dora until I wanted to shoot myself. I hate that show.
Also caught a bit of the "fresh beat bands". Seriously? Is this what television has come to?
What happened to the good old days with Saved by the Bell , lambchop, gerbert, sesame street!?!
Right now my charge is sitting quietly with his blankie watching t.v. and sucking on his thumb but about an hour ago he was meltdown city. He's adorable, I love him. He makes me want babies of my own. I feel like I'm finally starting to get why people have kids. It's taken me a while but the more time I spend with my friend's kids the more fascinated I become.
I'm kind of obsessed with being a mom right now, I'm hoping the feeling passes.
I'm wearing my husband out haha.
Poor guy, all he wanted to do last night was go to sleep and I ...well...let's just say didn't let him get his full 8 hours.
I worry about the alters, I know Eve would be a good motherly influence, but Mac? She'd be trying to teach the baby fart jokes and rapping the ABC's. Ava?....Jesus....Ava....that would probably be among the top five worst role models ever.
I'm worried that someone would find out about them and try and take my kids away from me.
I know it's not the right time, that we need to eliminate the last bit of our debt at the VERY least first...and I would LIKE to go to Europe first just because that would be an amazing trip for us. Every day I tell myself that I can wait, that it's not a good time for kids, that I still have so much I want to do, and by the end of the day I'm jumping my half asleep husband.
Right now we're using protection but it's like my head is telling me one thing (NO BABY) and my body's screaming another(BABYBABYBABYBABY). I'm too young for my biological clock to start ticking so what's the deal?
When I see my husband taking care of our friend's kids it reminds me that he's going to be an amazing father....and I'm just sunk. Before I know it I'm back on the baby train!
Hopefully babysitting and the fact I've got a horse who still needs alot of work done will keep me busy enough to forget about having my own kids until we're financially stable.
-Divided Mind-
I think this is great that you think about it.
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WIth kid you will be working twice harder...
Why? Because you will constantly worry about everything...
Anyway I think it's worth it. Kid, with you on his/her side, will be so strong in life. It will help him or her :)
I am sure both you and your husband will be amazing and loving parents. But taking care of your own requires quite ironically, pure undivided attention. Never underestimate the strength of a baby though. They are fighters and yours will definitely be top of the heap when it's time.
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